Slow Path to Destruction

" ²³ The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.²⁴ Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand." -Psalm 37:23-24

Hungry I come to You for I know You satisfy. I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry. So I wait for You.I'm falling on my knees offering all of me. Jesus You're all this heart is living for. Broken I run to You for Your arms are open wide. I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life." Hungry Kutless

I have been born with a God sized void in my heart. I've preached this to many people, but only tonight I have realized the importance of this void in my life. I know it's there and lately I've been filling it with anything, but God. Facebook, boys, texting etc. I have been going to certain things to fill the void. It feels great at first, but it's a slow path to destruction. No matter how much I get of a certain thing it never feels right. It leaves me emptier than when I first started. It leaves me aching, stuck in a situation that I could have so easily avoided.

I call out to God and I ask him to speak and there are two things that keep repeating. I love you and come to me. So I will accept his love I know that he is the only one who can fill it. I'm sick of trying to fill the void with things that so easily disappear, things that are so quick to change. I can put my hope in God because he never changes. He stays the same both last year and today. No matter how different the trial is he is here for me. He won't leave and he won't stop loving me because he has found someone better. He sees me as broken, messed up, he sees my faults, but he loves me anyway. He forgives my every mistake. He fills the void with a peace in knowing that no matter what my understanding is. He knows better, he's seen it all he understands it better than anyone. He's in control I don't have to worry. So when things start to get hard, when I become once again lonely and sad. I will turn to him for comfort and know that my happiness will be restored. He has me in his hands. I must remind myself that he has gotten me through it before he can do it again. So I will surrender myself completely to the maker of the heavens and the earth. I'll live my life to serve you Lord God and praise you.  One year to get to know HIM better instead of him. A relationship that won't end in heartache.

^"18Our God, no one is like you.
   We are all that is left
   of your chosen people,
   and you freely forgive
   our sin and guilt.
   You don't stay angry forever;
   you're glad to have pity
    ¹⁹and pleased to be merciful.
   You will trample on our sins
   and throw them in the sea." -Micah 7:18-19