Floating To The Top

^"13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,^[a] but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, ¹⁴ I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us." -Philippians 3:13-14

"We stand and lift up our hands for the joy of the Lord is our strength. We bow down and worship him now. How great how awesome is he. Together we sing everyone sing, holy is the Lord God Almighty the earth is filled with his glory. He's rising up all around it's the anthem of the Lords renown." -Holy is the Lord Jonathan Lee

Thoughts they keep coming at me, unwanted. Just like an object in a salty sea resurfacing. No matter how heavy the weight is they just keep floating to the top. Attracting pain, just like a shark is attracted to blood. These thoughts like a shark want to kill, not me but more my sanity. They break me down and make me weak. I keep fighting and I'm losing. Than I realize the more energy used on fighting the thoughts strong and unstoppable like the currents, the more energy I lose. So I will do what I should do if the current pulls me out. Surrender to it and just go with the flow. I will surrender all of my thoughts to God, all of these temptations to God, after all he has made the sea. He can control these thoughts and destroy them. He can calm the storm that they cause and restore peace in me. He will lead me out of the ocean and onto his shore of protection. So I will keep in his word. I will work to keep my eyes fixed on him, his love, and his promises. I have to keep reminding myself that he LOVES me so much he doesn't want to see me hurting again. He is all that matters. I have to watch my actions. I'm sick of playing with fire, I'm sick of being vulnerable to the blazing flame that leaves me burnt time and time again. Instead I will give in to his Holy Spirit who gives me strength. I will surrender the thoughts which chain me in sorrow and seek his Spirit. For where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom from all of this. In God's presence there is satisfying joy and his joy is my strength.

 ^"2 When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you." Isaiah 43:2