"Jesus take the wheel, I'm letting go."

 ⁷ “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. ⁸ For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened." Matthew 7:7:8

"How lovely is your dwelling place oh Lord Almighty my soul longs and even faints for you. For here my heart is satisfied within your presence. I sing beneath the shadow of your wings.

Better is one day in your courts. Better is one day in your house. Better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere." -Better is One Day Kutless 

Waking up each day with this feeling of sadness. Why do I feel this way? I don't necessarily have a reason to be like this. My dreams bring memories of what I have lost and it's in my mind that I hold tightly to these things. Maybe this is a reminder that the best way I'm going to grow is to take baby steps and keep moving forward. The only way I can keep my life flowing is to allow myself to loosen my grip on what was. Loosen my grip until the things I am carrying slip from my fingertips and sink to the bottom of the river where I can forget about them. They anchor me down and the burden is taking me lower into the deep waters. For the things I once had were good,but the things that God has for me are ten times better. I am grateful for what was but I need to now look forward to what will be. God is telling me to let go. He is telling me to surrender them. He tells me to trust in him and the promises he has given me. He calls me to his presence. 

I come running. I knock on his door and when he doesn't answer I stay. It starts as a gentle tapping and then when he doesn't open the door, the gentle tapping becomes a desperate knocking. It becomes loud and persistent. I am desperate for his presence. For where he is there is freedom from my sadness. There is protection. There is love. There is peace. There is joy and happiness. There is covering. My void is filled. Better is one day in his courts than thousands elsewhere. How desperate am I and how desperate should I be? 

  

"My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me

  And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” Psalm 27:8