Peace Maker

^"12 This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you. ¹³ There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends." -John 15"12-13

"Covered by your love divine. Child of the risen Lord. To hear you say "this one's mine." My heart is spoken for."- Spoken For Sanctus Real

I am commanded to love. Why is it so hard for me to love the people closest to me. If I could describe my relationship with them I would compare it to a light switch on and off. One second we get along the next we are at each others necks. It is a never ending challenge to get along with them. The light is so dim where it needs to shine the brightest. I may be the only influence to guide them to Jesus and I feel like I've been doing a horrible job. I mean look it's so hard to keep the peace. We are always fighting. I want this to stop, I want most of all to be the role model guiding them down that narrow path. I want to be the peace maker. I want not to argue any longer over miniscule situations ridiculous topics. I want the threats, the hitting, the violence to cease. We are a family and I want by my actions to show that Jesus lives in me. 

I am called to love not just the people who are easiest to love, but the ones who are harder to love for they need the love more. Just like Jesus said "those who are healthy don't need the doctor the sick do." (Matthew 9:12) So I am going to challenge myself. It may be forced at first, but practice makes perfect. I will love no matter what for love holds no conditions. I will smile and forgive right away. I won't argue, I won't hit, I won't threaten. I will keep my mouth shut and keep the peace. Lastly I will pray pray and pray that God will have his way with my family. I will work to be the light in this house. 

"I am leaving you with a gift--peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid." John 14:27