Raining on the parts I want to cover with an umbrella

James 4:17
Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it.

Hillsong
The Desert Song lyrics

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

 

I remember one night at camp during worship we were praying and praying for the rain. Kat and T were leading us in worship we asked for rain and God let it pour. We kept asking God to rain in our lives to drench what had become a desert. Oh and he was there pouring into each and every dry part. His holy spirit rained down and everyone was filled. I remember what Kat said. She said that we're asking God to rain in our lives and he was going to rain in places we didn't want him to rain in but we just had to give it up. 

At the time I was all for it. I kept praying yes Lord let it rain. Let it rain. Let it rain even in the places I don't want you to rain in. Although I have to say I was like things are good right now. What could he possibly rain in? 

Now I know. I started talking to this guy again. I'm trying to set boundaries so that I don't cross anything. I have committed this year to God. It is looking messy. I am confused. I don't know what to do. I'm scared, but I must trust with all my heart that God knows what is best for me. He will take care of me. If my heart breaks in the near future he will restore it again. I must allow him to rain in the places he needs to rain in. I need him to drench every dry spot, to purify everything, and to wash away anything that blocks clarity. 

I live for God. He is enough. When this year is up I'll trust that he will put me where I need to be. 

Psalm 37:7-9

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ⁷ Be still in the presence of the Lord,
      and wait patiently for him to act.
   Don’t worry about evil people who prosper
      or fret about their wicked schemes.
 ⁸ Stop being angry!
      Turn from your rage!
   Do not lose your temper—
      it only leads to harm.
 ⁹ For the wicked will be destroyed,
      but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land.