Free from Fear

Psalm 34:4

I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears.

"Come and make my heart your home. Come and be everything I am and all I know. Search me through and through, till my heart becomes a home for you.Let everything I do open up a door for you to come through and that my heart would be a place that you want to be." -My heart your home Watermark

I forgot about this song. Yesterday I played this song on youtube that I just found and I decided to click on another song. I clicked on my heart your home because it sounded like a pretty title. When it started playing I realized I knew this song by heart. 

Yesterday my dad finally gave me a sim card for my phone. I didn't have a cellphone all summer. I gave it up because my plan expired, but I also realized that texting stole so much from me. See I could have pushed my dad to get me a sim card sooner but I didn't. I wanted to be focused on the bigger picture. It was easy to give it up because I didn't have it. I forgot all about texting because it was non existent. 

When I got my phone back yesterday I was filled with fear. I was tempted to start texting someone. I had to put my phone in my living room far from me to resist my phone. Having a cellphone isn't a bad thing. It's a useful tool needed to communicate. What I do with this cellphone is bad. I was a text addict. I would text non stop. Texting stole so much time away from my life. I missed out on all of the small but important things because my attention was always focused on my phone. I would stay up all night texting losing sleep and therefore losing braincells. Since I would stay up all night I would feel more than exhausted the following day. 

Where am I trying to get with this? I made my cellphone my "idol". 

I spent more time with my phone than with God. After a while I got lost. I don't want that to happen to me again. I have found myself on the right path once again and I no longer want to take a detour. I want so badly to be alert to God's voice rather than be alert to my ringtone. I want to spend more time with him and know him more and more. 

So the cellphone is back. I will just have to restrain myself from going overboard. Getting to my goal is going to take a lot of practice and discipline. It will be hard but not impossible. I don't need to fear because God gives me strength.

Psalm 91:4-5

"The Lord says, "I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them."

James 1:12

"Happy is the man who doesn't give in and do wrong when he is tempted, for afterwards he will get as his reward the crown of life that God has promised those who love him."