Dedicated to Brandon IDK why..

Luke 6:35

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ³⁵ “Love your enemies! Do good to them. Lend to them without expecting to be repaid. Then your reward from heaven will be very great, and you will truly be acting as children of the Most High, for he is kind to those who are unthankful and wicked.

Proverbs 10:18

Hiding hatred makes you a liar;
      slandering others makes you a fool.

When I am in a very sad or angry mood I turn to poetry to express myself and escape my pain. If you heard my poetry you would usually say it’s dark. It is particularly very deep. These two verses spoke to me. I feel like I need to do a self evaluation. I need to look deep inside and find the places I am hiding hatred. I need to listen to the recent command God has placed in my heart. It is let go. I need so badly to let go. I need to think of everything I have been holding onto and let it go. It is only then when I finally make the choice to let go of all the hurt and anger I’ve been holding that I will be freed. When I let go of all of these things God will give me freedom. I will no longer be held down by what has happened in the past. Sure I have been hurt before, sure life is unfair at times, but it is time to let it go. I need to forgive every single person and every action they have done. I need to look past all of the bad events that have occurred in my life and open my eyes to all of the blessings that were behind them. I need to constantly be thankful for all that God gives me. I need to follow God’s example. Though we were sinners he still loved us, he was still kind to us. He paid for our sins with his son once and for all because he loved us more than anything. I will choose to forgive. I will choose to love. I will choose to give. Instead of avoiding the people who have hurt me I will embrace them. If they need help I won’t ignore them. 

Anyway back to the poetry thing. Usually my poetry is something like this.

“Hemophiliac”

Your heart is like stone lacking compassion, like a hemophiliac lacks the chemicals to stop blood from spilling out of the body.

Bleeding my heart is bleeding the blood flows like a raging river, taking the broken pieces into a lake that has been forlorn way too long.

Sans hope sans peace sans life.

Heart shattered it's like you've taken it to the top of the Eiffel Tower and dropped it.

And it falls against your careless actions sharp as razors.

The shredded and broken pieces are more than the atoms in the universe.

You see how woeful I am but you constantly send my emotions out into the storm.

They are vulnerable without any protection.

They are thrashed around and toyed with.

Unpredictable like a tornado, an earthquake, or a tsunami.

Uncontrollable like a shark swimming in a tank filled with bloody fish.

You don't give a flying pig you pretend that everything is great and that hurts more than getting stabbed it the back. Etu Love?

I wonder if you just enjoy seeing my cringe in pain or watching my fists ball up and my face turn red with anger.

Does my agony affect you in anyway?

Can you feel the sting that afflicts me so much not even the strongest pain killer would be able to take it away?

The anguish is so deep not even the most high tech shovel could dig it up.

So I'm going to cut the strings.

I refuse to be some puppet you can just torture.

You will never cause my heart to ache anymore.

The shield that kept me blinded had fallen off.

I was blessed with the opportunity to see the real you, yeah I DO not like it!

So see you later.

You cause so much destruction this is my chance to walk away.

I feel like God has challenged me to write not about all the hurt I have experienced but how he has worked in my life through the hurt. I’ll post that poem when I finally create it.

Proverbs 11:17

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ¹⁷ Your kindness will reward you,
      but your cruelty will destroy you.

Oh one more thing. I appreciate everyone who reads my blogs. I have given up facebook for the summer. My friend Arielle posts my blogs up, so if you need to contact me. Please email me @ rhiajimenez@yahoo.com . That would be really cool. Thanks again and God bless!!!

Love in Christ, Rhia