Focus?

Ephesians 3:18

¹⁸ And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 

I'm falling on my knees. Jesus you're all this heart is living for. -Hungry by Kathryn Scott

Last night at the carnival I thought about all the things I often think about. I asked myself what it would be like if I constantly thought about what God has done in my life rather than other things counted as useless. Would I become a different person? Possibly. If I focused on God and all the promises he has in store for me instead of the past events and other thoughts not of God I would probably be transformed. It says in Romans chapter 12:1-2 So therefore I urge you brothers in view of God's mercy to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God. This is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. So I have to take each though captive and replace it with a bible verse, a song, or a prayer.

I've given up boys for one year. The summer is ending and I'm am being haunted by thoughts of boys from my past. It's sort of driving me nuts. I go to sleep at night and they meet me in my dreams. I wake up feeling all twisted. During the day something I see will remind me of them and I'm trapped thinking about them until I realize how much time has slipped from my grasp. I need to practice my focus. Why? What I think I will eventually become. The more and more I think about what God has done for me the more christian like I will become. There is a horrid battle raging in my head. I'm learning to fight the thoughts off with bible verses, songs, or prayers. I should start memorizing bible verses by the boatload. When thoughts of him or them come back I'll take them captive. If I start fall a couple of times it will be okay because in the end God always wins. 

Time all in HIS perfect timing. He has already told me that I am free from the past. He loves me and his love is cannot be comprehended. So everyday I live on this earth I will continue to surrender anything that comes back. He will take them away from me. I no longer have to hold all the pain inside. He has called me to let it all go. He has and will continue to send the healing rain. I just have to be willing to go outside and stand under his showers of grace. I have to be down to stand in a puddle, submerged in his unconditional love.

1 John 1:9

New International Version (NIV)

⁹ If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.