Comparisons are really bad. They can really destroy a person's mental state. Growing up I always compared myself to my sister. She was so much smarter than me. She had straight A's since kindergarten. She could act. She could dance. She's skinny. EVERYONE loved her. She got along with everyone. She could run faster. She could she could and I could not. It was a constant battle of where exactly did I stand.
Don't get me wrong. Oh my gosh I love my sister! I love her with most of my heart. (All of it belongs to Jesus) I am so proud of her and all of her accomplishments. So these words bring me to what I learned in camp. I was not meant to be my sister. I was meant to be me. ME God loves me for me. No exceptions. He has made me my own person fearfully and wonderfully made. He has a purpose that only I can fulfill. In his eyes I am beautiful just the way I am.
I wrote this on July 25th, 2011
It is 6:30 and the song forever reign is playing I have mentioned before that it is one of my favorite songs. It is amazing and holds a true meaning in every single word. We have been here since one. I have been very tired. My feet are darker than the night sky. I hope we'll start soon. I am very hungry. I have a great felling about tonight. I have to stop putting up a front. Tonight I must dig deeper. I must bring everything to the surface so God will rid me of them. He is willing and waiting for me to place it in his hand. Tonight is a night to heal. To really really really heal. I want every thought captive and send it away. Tonight is a night for transformation. I can feel it in my heart. I'll wrap this up. Love Rhia
PS No more comparisons you are fearfully and wonderfully made.
God created you for a unique purpose that only you can fulfill and HE LOVES YOU.
Sunday, 31 July 2011
Weight of the World
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
Salvation is here and he's living in me....Greater is he that's living in me than he that is in the world.
-Salvation is here Hillsong
Once again.. I'm so restless. This is the latest I've been up all summer long. I feel all twisted inside. I feel like crying for some reason and I don't know why..
Yesterday I got into a bit of trouble. There was a lack of communication between my parents and I. I started to cry in the back seat of my friends car. Her dad realized I was crying and gave me really good advice.
It went down like this. Rhia what did you learn in camp? That Jesus loves you no matter what.? Well yes but no what about the burdens? Oh that Jesus will carry the burdens for you. Yes you don't have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders give them to Jesus. When you are feeling down read the parables, read proverbs and listen to music. Music has some deep meaning to it.
He then proceeded to make me and Arielle laugh. He reminded me that I should always have every detail of where I was going written on paper. He said not to tell my parents to chill just to say calm down I'm alive. It was during this time in the car where I found a new admiration for parents. My eyes were opened to exactly how much they care and worry for us. They were opened up to how hard they work their butts off to provide for us. I mean sure I knew this before but I had a better grasp of it when I was sitting in the car. I actually wanted to go home and apologize for the lack of communication.
When things are looking gloomy. Don't panic. Put a smile on your face and laugh until your sides ache. Calm down. Speak gently and always always give your burdens to Jesus. You'll never have to face anything alone. You will always have Jesus right at your side. Take the weight off your shoulders.
Romans 12:12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.
Matthew 11:28
Salvation is here and he's living in me....Greater is he that's living in me than he that is in the world.
-Salvation is here Hillsong
Once again.. I'm so restless. This is the latest I've been up all summer long. I feel all twisted inside. I feel like crying for some reason and I don't know why..
Yesterday I got into a bit of trouble. There was a lack of communication between my parents and I. I started to cry in the back seat of my friends car. Her dad realized I was crying and gave me really good advice.
It went down like this. Rhia what did you learn in camp? That Jesus loves you no matter what.? Well yes but no what about the burdens? Oh that Jesus will carry the burdens for you. Yes you don't have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders give them to Jesus. When you are feeling down read the parables, read proverbs and listen to music. Music has some deep meaning to it.
He then proceeded to make me and Arielle laugh. He reminded me that I should always have every detail of where I was going written on paper. He said not to tell my parents to chill just to say calm down I'm alive. It was during this time in the car where I found a new admiration for parents. My eyes were opened to exactly how much they care and worry for us. They were opened up to how hard they work their butts off to provide for us. I mean sure I knew this before but I had a better grasp of it when I was sitting in the car. I actually wanted to go home and apologize for the lack of communication.
When things are looking gloomy. Don't panic. Put a smile on your face and laugh until your sides ache. Calm down. Speak gently and always always give your burdens to Jesus. You'll never have to face anything alone. You will always have Jesus right at your side. Take the weight off your shoulders.
Romans 12:12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.
A city without walls
Proverbs 25:28 “Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self control.”
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
-So I thought Flyleaf
I can't sleep!! Insomnia has plagued my body. I know I'm tired, but I just can't seem to sleep. I want to talk to someone. I just don't think I should so I'll blog. I will blog until the words on the screen blur together. I will blog until I feel like crying. I will blog until my fingers and wrists scream UNCLE! I will write until I finally fall asleep.
One day I believe I was bitten by a mosquito. I then had this intellectual realization. Mosquito bites are kind of like sin. Okay maybe mosquito bites are closer to temptation then sin. You see a mosquito bite is apart of the flesh calling you to scratch it so you can feel "relief" for the moment. Now the sin comes in when you start scratching. ( Now I'm not saying that it's a sin to scratch a bug bite I'm just trying to make a point here.)
When you first start scratching it feels good. When you continue to start scratching you will eventually turn that bite into open flesh. As you continue to scratch you will leave a scar.
Here's the good news. God has blessed every single person with his holy spirit. The holy spirit is kind of like the calamine lotion you would put on your bite to soothe the itching. The holy spirit gives you self control. You have a choice whether to let the holy spirit take control or let your flesh take control.
Do you want your skin the same way you had it before you got bitten or do you want it filled with scars?
1 Peter 1:13
Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed.
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
-So I thought Flyleaf
I can't sleep!! Insomnia has plagued my body. I know I'm tired, but I just can't seem to sleep. I want to talk to someone. I just don't think I should so I'll blog. I will blog until the words on the screen blur together. I will blog until I feel like crying. I will blog until my fingers and wrists scream UNCLE! I will write until I finally fall asleep.
One day I believe I was bitten by a mosquito. I then had this intellectual realization. Mosquito bites are kind of like sin. Okay maybe mosquito bites are closer to temptation then sin. You see a mosquito bite is apart of the flesh calling you to scratch it so you can feel "relief" for the moment. Now the sin comes in when you start scratching. ( Now I'm not saying that it's a sin to scratch a bug bite I'm just trying to make a point here.)
When you first start scratching it feels good. When you continue to start scratching you will eventually turn that bite into open flesh. As you continue to scratch you will leave a scar.
Here's the good news. God has blessed every single person with his holy spirit. The holy spirit is kind of like the calamine lotion you would put on your bite to soothe the itching. The holy spirit gives you self control. You have a choice whether to let the holy spirit take control or let your flesh take control.
Do you want your skin the same way you had it before you got bitten or do you want it filled with scars?
1 Peter 1:13
Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Saturday, 30 July 2011
It is NOT trash
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The olD life is gone the new life has begun!
Open the floodgates of heaven let it rain. - Let it rain Jesus culture
I have a Souvenir from camp. It is a crushed plastic bottle. On the label my name is crossed out in red marker replaced by the name of Jesus. Now someone who does not know this might ask me why am I wearing trash on my lanyard. I would reply this is not a piece of trash. This is a symbol. A symbol holding multiple meanings. I am the bottle. I have emptied out my old self. I have crushed the past underneath my feet. I will come to God daily empty so that he will fill me and make me whole again. The reason why my name is crossed out and Jesus name is shone is because that is who God sees.
Here is an object lesson for you. I got this from my Pastor PK. Anyway you have three bottles. One that is filled to the top with dirt. One that has a minuscule amount of sand in it and one that is pure. Then you have two people one person has been good all her life but messes up just once. The other person has messed up all his life and turned into a mass murderer. Who owns which bottle? One might say that the girl has the cleaner bottle while the dude has the dirty bottle. Here is the catch. In God's eyes sin is sin. It won't matter what you've done God will see you as this dark bottle. Then there's another catch when you accept Jesus into your life as your lord and savior God sees his son a pure sacrifice once and for all. So that is what the bottle means.
Acts 2:21 anyone who calls on the name of the lord will be saved
Open the floodgates of heaven let it rain. - Let it rain Jesus culture
I have a Souvenir from camp. It is a crushed plastic bottle. On the label my name is crossed out in red marker replaced by the name of Jesus. Now someone who does not know this might ask me why am I wearing trash on my lanyard. I would reply this is not a piece of trash. This is a symbol. A symbol holding multiple meanings. I am the bottle. I have emptied out my old self. I have crushed the past underneath my feet. I will come to God daily empty so that he will fill me and make me whole again. The reason why my name is crossed out and Jesus name is shone is because that is who God sees.
Here is an object lesson for you. I got this from my Pastor PK. Anyway you have three bottles. One that is filled to the top with dirt. One that has a minuscule amount of sand in it and one that is pure. Then you have two people one person has been good all her life but messes up just once. The other person has messed up all his life and turned into a mass murderer. Who owns which bottle? One might say that the girl has the cleaner bottle while the dude has the dirty bottle. Here is the catch. In God's eyes sin is sin. It won't matter what you've done God will see you as this dark bottle. Then there's another catch when you accept Jesus into your life as your lord and savior God sees his son a pure sacrifice once and for all. So that is what the bottle means.
Acts 2:21 anyone who calls on the name of the lord will be saved
Sunday, 24 July 2011
A Genuine Hug
John 20:22-23
And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit. 23If you forgive anyone his sins, they are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven."
I will trust in You, even in the moments
I can’t find you, and I will hold on to
Your promises of love
You’ve never failed before
I know You can hear me
When the silence is deafening
Even though You seem far away
And I know You’re here with me
But I just need faith to see
Nothing can separate me from Your love
-Can Anybody Hear Me Meredith Andrews
Genuine reconciliation makes me want to burst out in tears. It does something that makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. It realigns everything and makes all things right again. It gives me closure and makes my heart smile.
Recently I came across an old friend. This friend and I used to be super close. SUPER SUPER close, okay I may be exaggerating just a little bit. Anyway I considered this friend to be one of the "best". I had a lot of fun with this person. I made many cherished memories with this person. I tried to stay close to my friends from middle school but the distance allowed us to drift apart.
I didn't know why I was not as close to this person as I used to be. After time flew by there was some sort of "dislike" in the air. Whenever thoughts of my old friend came up there was always this negative connotation emanating from ideas of this person. My friend became a stranger.
I saw this person recently and I avoided this person like one would avoid the plague. I didn't want to talk to my old friend. I didn't know why. Maybe because as time passed this person changed or maybe I changed and the person stayed the same. Maybe it was because this person said something to hurt my feelings. What was I thinking? Why was I thinking about everything that happened in the past?
The past is the past what I do or rather what I did I cannot change. What people did to me will not change. Life is a journey and if I want to get anywhere I have to start looking straight ahead. I have to step on the gas and move forward. If I'm too busy looking in the rear view mirror I will not move in the right direction and I will probably crash. That cause many more problems. So as the Robinson family always said "keep moving forward." I must forget in order to forgive and I must forgive in order to live.
Anyway back to the point. So at the end of the day. I just had this pull to hug my friend. I just wanted to take all my love that I felt at that very moment and pour it into my friend. I wanted the hug to say I forgive you; please forgive me; lets start over. It wasn't one of those hugs that you give to people just because. It was a hug like what another friend of mine called genuine. That hug brought me what I really needed. It opened my heart to see that forgiveness and closure was easily attainable if I was open to the idea. I was over flowing with joy. I don't know if you have ever felt that feeling in your heart it just feels nice. It makes you want to smile. It gives you peace. That day the Holy Spirit worked in me and closed up some holes that have been open way too long.
I hope that short moment did something in that persons life to fill my friend with happiness.
Luke 6:35-38;42
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." ... How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit. 23If you forgive anyone his sins, they are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven."
I will trust in You, even in the moments
I can’t find you, and I will hold on to
Your promises of love
You’ve never failed before
I know You can hear me
When the silence is deafening
Even though You seem far away
And I know You’re here with me
But I just need faith to see
Nothing can separate me from Your love
-Can Anybody Hear Me Meredith Andrews
Genuine reconciliation makes me want to burst out in tears. It does something that makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. It realigns everything and makes all things right again. It gives me closure and makes my heart smile.
Recently I came across an old friend. This friend and I used to be super close. SUPER SUPER close, okay I may be exaggerating just a little bit. Anyway I considered this friend to be one of the "best". I had a lot of fun with this person. I made many cherished memories with this person. I tried to stay close to my friends from middle school but the distance allowed us to drift apart.
I didn't know why I was not as close to this person as I used to be. After time flew by there was some sort of "dislike" in the air. Whenever thoughts of my old friend came up there was always this negative connotation emanating from ideas of this person. My friend became a stranger.
I saw this person recently and I avoided this person like one would avoid the plague. I didn't want to talk to my old friend. I didn't know why. Maybe because as time passed this person changed or maybe I changed and the person stayed the same. Maybe it was because this person said something to hurt my feelings. What was I thinking? Why was I thinking about everything that happened in the past?
The past is the past what I do or rather what I did I cannot change. What people did to me will not change. Life is a journey and if I want to get anywhere I have to start looking straight ahead. I have to step on the gas and move forward. If I'm too busy looking in the rear view mirror I will not move in the right direction and I will probably crash. That cause many more problems. So as the Robinson family always said "keep moving forward." I must forget in order to forgive and I must forgive in order to live.
Anyway back to the point. So at the end of the day. I just had this pull to hug my friend. I just wanted to take all my love that I felt at that very moment and pour it into my friend. I wanted the hug to say I forgive you; please forgive me; lets start over. It wasn't one of those hugs that you give to people just because. It was a hug like what another friend of mine called genuine. That hug brought me what I really needed. It opened my heart to see that forgiveness and closure was easily attainable if I was open to the idea. I was over flowing with joy. I don't know if you have ever felt that feeling in your heart it just feels nice. It makes you want to smile. It gives you peace. That day the Holy Spirit worked in me and closed up some holes that have been open way too long.
I hope that short moment did something in that persons life to fill my friend with happiness.
Luke 6:35-38;42
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." ... How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
Thursday, 21 July 2011
Focus?
Ephesians 3:18
18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
I'm falling on my knees. Jesus you're all this heart is living for. -Hungry by Kathryn Scott
Last night at the carnival I thought about all the things I often think about. I asked myself what it would be like if I constantly thought about what God has done in my life rather than other things counted as useless. Would I become a different person? Possibly. If I focused on God and all the promises he has in store for me instead of the past events and other thoughts not of God I would probably be transformed. It says in Romans chapter 12:1-2 So therefore I urge you brothers in view of God's mercy to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God. This is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. So I have to take each though captive and replace it with a bible verse, a song, or a prayer.
I've given up boys for one year. The summer is ending and I'm am being haunted by thoughts of boys from my past. It's sort of driving me nuts. I go to sleep at night and they meet me in my dreams. I wake up feeling all twisted. During the day something I see will remind me of them and I'm trapped thinking about them until I realize how much time has slipped from my grasp. I need to practice my focus. Why? What I think I will eventually become. The more and more I think about what God has done for me the more christian like I will become. There is a horrid battle raging in my head. I'm learning to fight the thoughts off with bible verses, songs, or prayers. I should start memorizing bible verses by the boatload. When thoughts of him or them come back I'll take them captive. If I start fall a couple of times it will be okay because in the end God always wins.
Time all in HIS perfect timing. He has already told me that I am free from the past. He loves me and his love is cannot be comprehended. So everyday I live on this earth I will continue to surrender anything that comes back. He will take them away from me. I no longer have to hold all the pain inside. He has called me to let it all go. He has and will continue to send the healing rain. I just have to be willing to go outside and stand under his showers of grace. I have to be down to stand in a puddle, submerged in his unconditional love.
1 John 1:9
New International Version (NIV)
9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Tuesday, 19 July 2011
Pablo
Proverbs 19:21
You can make many plans,
but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.
Beautiful Jesus
How may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth
I bow down to everything You are
Beautiful Jesus
You are my only worth
So I will embrace You always
As I walk this earth
-Knees to the Earth Watermark
God has a purpose for everything. His purpose is beautiful. Today I prayed that I would find Chris. I also prayed that God would hold the rain until I got to GW. He answered one of my prayers and said no to the other one. He had a purpose for me.
God bless me with a "bubble of dryness", but I could not find my dear friend. I decided to sit on the bench and spent about ten minutes trying to figure out if I should wait or leave. I finally made the choice to head back. God had other plans for me because as soon as I hit A-wing it started to pour.
I tried to look for him at the library, but failed again. So I made my way back to the bench and sat next to this guy. He asked me if I walked to GW in the rain. I replied by saying that it wasn't raining or sprinkling. It was dripping so it was no biggie. I also added that there was no way I was going to walk back in the rain so I was stuck until further notice. At this very moment I spotted David and asked him if he saw Chris. David said he already left.
It stopped raining so I started my journey back to GCC. My new friend followed and we started to talk about school and summer. I was looking for some type of opportunity to tell him about my club. I saw NOTHING. Eventually he mentioned that he always saw me around campus holding my bible. He said I must be really religious. That was my chance. I retorted that I wouldn't call it religious because religion was based on practicing the same thing over and over again. I told him that I had a relationship with God. He said oh so you want to get closer to God. I said exactly, because there is room for change and growth. I told him that I'm going to have a club next year that will talk about the bible and God's love. I hope that talking to this guy planted a seed in his heart that will grow into a life giving tree.
Psalm 37:3-6
You can make many plans,
but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.
Beautiful Jesus
How may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth
I bow down to everything You are
Beautiful Jesus
You are my only worth
So I will embrace You always
As I walk this earth
-Knees to the Earth Watermark
God has a purpose for everything. His purpose is beautiful. Today I prayed that I would find Chris. I also prayed that God would hold the rain until I got to GW. He answered one of my prayers and said no to the other one. He had a purpose for me.
God bless me with a "bubble of dryness", but I could not find my dear friend. I decided to sit on the bench and spent about ten minutes trying to figure out if I should wait or leave. I finally made the choice to head back. God had other plans for me because as soon as I hit A-wing it started to pour.
I tried to look for him at the library, but failed again. So I made my way back to the bench and sat next to this guy. He asked me if I walked to GW in the rain. I replied by saying that it wasn't raining or sprinkling. It was dripping so it was no biggie. I also added that there was no way I was going to walk back in the rain so I was stuck until further notice. At this very moment I spotted David and asked him if he saw Chris. David said he already left.
It stopped raining so I started my journey back to GCC. My new friend followed and we started to talk about school and summer. I was looking for some type of opportunity to tell him about my club. I saw NOTHING. Eventually he mentioned that he always saw me around campus holding my bible. He said I must be really religious. That was my chance. I retorted that I wouldn't call it religious because religion was based on practicing the same thing over and over again. I told him that I had a relationship with God. He said oh so you want to get closer to God. I said exactly, because there is room for change and growth. I told him that I'm going to have a club next year that will talk about the bible and God's love. I hope that talking to this guy planted a seed in his heart that will grow into a life giving tree.
Psalm 37:3-6
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.
Free from Fear
Psalm 34:4
I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears.
"Come and make my heart your home. Come and be everything I am and all I know. Search me through and through, till my heart becomes a home for you.Let everything I do open up a door for you to come through and that my heart would be a place that you want to be." -My heart your home Watermark
I forgot about this song. Yesterday I played this song on youtube that I just found and I decided to click on another song. I clicked on my heart your home because it sounded like a pretty title. When it started playing I realized I knew this song by heart.
Yesterday my dad finally gave me a sim card for my phone. I didn't have a cellphone all summer. I gave it up because my plan expired, but I also realized that texting stole so much from me. See I could have pushed my dad to get me a sim card sooner but I didn't. I wanted to be focused on the bigger picture. It was easy to give it up because I didn't have it. I forgot all about texting because it was non existent.
When I got my phone back yesterday I was filled with fear. I was tempted to start texting someone. I had to put my phone in my living room far from me to resist my phone. Having a cellphone isn't a bad thing. It's a useful tool needed to communicate. What I do with this cellphone is bad. I was a text addict. I would text non stop. Texting stole so much time away from my life. I missed out on all of the small but important things because my attention was always focused on my phone. I would stay up all night texting losing sleep and therefore losing braincells. Since I would stay up all night I would feel more than exhausted the following day.
Where am I trying to get with this? I made my cellphone my "idol".
I spent more time with my phone than with God. After a while I got lost. I don't want that to happen to me again. I have found myself on the right path once again and I no longer want to take a detour. I want so badly to be alert to God's voice rather than be alert to my ringtone. I want to spend more time with him and know him more and more.
So the cellphone is back. I will just have to restrain myself from going overboard. Getting to my goal is going to take a lot of practice and discipline. It will be hard but not impossible. I don't need to fear because God gives me strength.
Psalm 91:4-5
"The Lord says, "I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them."
James 1:12
"Happy is the man who doesn't give in and do wrong when he is tempted, for afterwards he will get as his reward the crown of life that God has promised those who love him."
Sunday, 17 July 2011
Attempt at a Happy Poem
Psalm 147:3 ESV / 215 helpful votes
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
"I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned.I'm alive and well your spirit is within me because you died and rose again. Amazing love how can it be, that you my king would die for me? Amazing love I know it's true and it's my joy to honor you. In all I do, I honor you....JESUS YOU ARE MY KING." -Amazing love by hillsong
In one of my previous blogs I said I would write a happy poem. I have to say that I tried. So here goes everything. I hope you enjoy it. :)
"God Girl"
If God blesses me with a daughter I will advise her to stay away from young "love".
I want to protect her from a boy who will break into her temple and steal her heart away.
I mean sure the boy will take care of it for a little while, but eventually he'll do something that will make my baby's heart slip from his fingers.
Her heart will be sent crashing into the cold reality where it will freeze and then shatter.
The pieces of her heart will outnumber the blades of grass that blanket our earth.
I want to shelter my daughter from PAIN. Pain that always seems endless.
The type of pain that feels like an immeasurable amount of double edge swords stabbing her over and over again until her fragile body goes numb.
I want to save her from the tears like a typhoon pouring on her face.
Tears that will flood around her in a pool until she is drowning in sheer agony.
I want to spare her from anger bursting from her body with an intensity burning like and infinite amount of stars hotter than hell.
I want to rescue her from being attacked by insanity's soldiers.
A war of insecurities raging in her mind.
I never want my daughter to settle for anything less than the best.
I want my baby to go out into the world with absolute confidence knowing that she will conquer.
If my daughter ignores my warnings that's okay.
I will take her into my arms and try to be like a vacuum sucking away all the negativity.
I will remind her that we both live for God.
He is the best security system for her heart.
He has the glue to put every single microscopic piece back together.
He will restore her heart and absorb her pain like a sponge.
He will comfort her.
He will be the calm during the storm of tears and the lifeguard who will save her from drowning.
He will be the fire extinguisher who will put out her flaming anger.
He will be the commanding officer that will win her mind's battle.
He was and will always be there for me and will always be there for my daughter.
If she waits, her prince will come.
It's better than never, if just a little bit late.
And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.
Friday, 15 July 2011
A new person
Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. (Isaiah 46:4)
We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and He will deliver us. On Him we have set our hope that He will continue to deliver us. (2 Corinthians 1:10)
"You've stolen my heart, yes you have. You wiped away the stains and broke away the chains yes you have." - Yes You Have Hillsong
I went into fellowship tonight holding so much inside. I had so many ghosts from my past haunting me. Deep down inside I was hurting. Deep down inside I was comparing myself to anyone around me. I was living in the past and I beat myself for my actions. I was attacked by the enemy and fell as I started to believe his lies. He told me I could not be loved because of my flaws. I could not be forgiven. I went into fellowship with the weight of the world on my shoulders and the bondage of the past tightly wrapped around my heart.
Tonight I gave my testimony about my life as a Christian. I confessed my faults. I confessed that I constantly compare myself to others. I let them know straight up what I have been through. Then I went back and we started to pray.
As we were praying I started to cry. I really just let all the tears flow. The pain exiting on each drop. God's Holy Spirit filled his house. Everyone was crying out the name of Jesus and pouring out their hearts to God. He came and set us free. He set me free and helped me let go of everything I was holding on to. Tonight was exciting as everyone felt the glory of God at fellowship. Everyone's heart was overflowing with his love. We had a love encounter with God tonight. He was definitely there among us.
When everything calmed down I felt like he talked to me. He said I was beautiful. He told me that he loved me and that nothing could separate me from his love. He said that I could only find him if I started really seeking him. He helped me realize that I wouldn't be able to find someone I wasn't looking for. He kept telling me he forgave me and that tonight I have become a new person. He said that I couldn't be sinless but I had to work to sin less. He gave me comfort and broke the chain.
I went into fellowship tonight seeking change. I left all that I held before I entered. I left the past at fellowship and left a new person.
I am so excited for camp. I know that what I experienced tonight won't be able to compare to what I will experience at camp.
Have you been filling a void with materialistic objects? Have you been feeling empty after each time? Do you want to experience a love encounter? Do you want the living water God offers? Do you want the bread of life? Consider going to 4HG's camp, it's a choice you won't regret. If you or anyone you know is interested our camp is from July 25-29, let me know. Island Praise Fellowship is hosting a camp. Love in Christ Rhia
http://www.persevering.org/freedom.html (verses on FREEDOM!!)
17 The Spirit and the bride say, “Come.” Let anyone who hears this say, “Come.” Let anyone who is thirsty come. Let anyone who desires drink freely from the water of life.
We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and He will deliver us. On Him we have set our hope that He will continue to deliver us. (2 Corinthians 1:10)
"You've stolen my heart, yes you have. You wiped away the stains and broke away the chains yes you have." - Yes You Have Hillsong
I went into fellowship tonight holding so much inside. I had so many ghosts from my past haunting me. Deep down inside I was hurting. Deep down inside I was comparing myself to anyone around me. I was living in the past and I beat myself for my actions. I was attacked by the enemy and fell as I started to believe his lies. He told me I could not be loved because of my flaws. I could not be forgiven. I went into fellowship with the weight of the world on my shoulders and the bondage of the past tightly wrapped around my heart.
Tonight I gave my testimony about my life as a Christian. I confessed my faults. I confessed that I constantly compare myself to others. I let them know straight up what I have been through. Then I went back and we started to pray.
As we were praying I started to cry. I really just let all the tears flow. The pain exiting on each drop. God's Holy Spirit filled his house. Everyone was crying out the name of Jesus and pouring out their hearts to God. He came and set us free. He set me free and helped me let go of everything I was holding on to. Tonight was exciting as everyone felt the glory of God at fellowship. Everyone's heart was overflowing with his love. We had a love encounter with God tonight. He was definitely there among us.
When everything calmed down I felt like he talked to me. He said I was beautiful. He told me that he loved me and that nothing could separate me from his love. He said that I could only find him if I started really seeking him. He helped me realize that I wouldn't be able to find someone I wasn't looking for. He kept telling me he forgave me and that tonight I have become a new person. He said that I couldn't be sinless but I had to work to sin less. He gave me comfort and broke the chain.
I went into fellowship tonight seeking change. I left all that I held before I entered. I left the past at fellowship and left a new person.
I am so excited for camp. I know that what I experienced tonight won't be able to compare to what I will experience at camp.
Have you been filling a void with materialistic objects? Have you been feeling empty after each time? Do you want to experience a love encounter? Do you want the living water God offers? Do you want the bread of life? Consider going to 4HG's camp, it's a choice you won't regret. If you or anyone you know is interested our camp is from July 25-29, let me know. Island Praise Fellowship is hosting a camp. Love in Christ Rhia
http://www.persevering.org/freedom.html (verses on FREEDOM!!)
Revelation 22:17
New Living Translation (NLT)
17 The Spirit and the bride say, “Come.” Let anyone who hears this say, “Come.” Let anyone who is thirsty come. Let anyone who desires drink freely from the water of life.
Monday, 11 July 2011
Light of the world
You are the light of the world like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. Matthew 5:14
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." - thy word
I got ready for school in the dark today. The light in my room chooses when it wants to turn on. When I flip the switch a lot of times my room stays dark. After a while it may go on but when my room is dark it leaves me thinking that the light bulb is burnt out.
Anyway getting down to the point. I came across this sudden understanding in my life. I want to make a choice starting today. I Rhia Nichole refuse to be like my light in my room. I don't want to be turned off when life isn't going my way. I don't want to stop shining just because I am burnt out. I want to continue to be a light to the world through the good times and the bad. Especially in the bad times, because that is when the world needs the light the most. A lot of people are in a dark place searching for some sort of light. They want to find the light so they can escape whatever they are going through. I want to be the light in their lives so that I can guide them to a place of refuge. I want to lead them to someone who understands every single circumstance. I want to lead them to a someone who loves without a
condition. I want to lead them to my king in heaven Jesus. It's like when it's dark and you've lost your way in the jungle, you take out a flashlight to find your way. The world is a jungle with many traps that will destroy you. I hope to be the flashlight that never burns out so
that I may lead you to safety.
Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, "I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won't have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life."
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." - thy word
I got ready for school in the dark today. The light in my room chooses when it wants to turn on. When I flip the switch a lot of times my room stays dark. After a while it may go on but when my room is dark it leaves me thinking that the light bulb is burnt out.
Anyway getting down to the point. I came across this sudden understanding in my life. I want to make a choice starting today. I Rhia Nichole refuse to be like my light in my room. I don't want to be turned off when life isn't going my way. I don't want to stop shining just because I am burnt out. I want to continue to be a light to the world through the good times and the bad. Especially in the bad times, because that is when the world needs the light the most. A lot of people are in a dark place searching for some sort of light. They want to find the light so they can escape whatever they are going through. I want to be the light in their lives so that I can guide them to a place of refuge. I want to lead them to someone who understands every single circumstance. I want to lead them to a someone who loves without a
condition. I want to lead them to my king in heaven Jesus. It's like when it's dark and you've lost your way in the jungle, you take out a flashlight to find your way. The world is a jungle with many traps that will destroy you. I hope to be the flashlight that never burns out so
that I may lead you to safety.
Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, "I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won't have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life."
Friday, 8 July 2011
Give Give Give
Proverbs 3:27
Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to do it.
I feel like just now God has put it on my heart to give. I don't have much to offer, but I am willing to give what ever I do have. If it's an ear to listen, or eyes to read, maybe even a mouth to give encouragement or prayers. Please let me know what I can do to help you. If you have anything you need help with please allow me to help you. If you ever need anyone, you can email me @ rhiajimenez@yahoo.com. If you don't like emailing then you can ask for my number. If you're more of the facebook commenter or messenger no problem, I'll be checking my facebook in August. God bless and good night!
Proverbs 21:26
…the righteous gives and does not hold back.
Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to do it.
I feel like just now God has put it on my heart to give. I don't have much to offer, but I am willing to give what ever I do have. If it's an ear to listen, or eyes to read, maybe even a mouth to give encouragement or prayers. Please let me know what I can do to help you. If you have anything you need help with please allow me to help you. If you ever need anyone, you can email me @ rhiajimenez@yahoo.com. If you don't like emailing then you can ask for my number. If you're more of the facebook commenter or messenger no problem, I'll be checking my facebook in August. God bless and good night!
Proverbs 21:26
…the righteous gives and does not hold back.
Thursday, 7 July 2011
Dedicated to Brandon IDK why..
Luke 6:35
New Living Translation (NLT)
35 “Love your enemies! Do good to them. Lend to them without expecting to be repaid. Then your reward from heaven will be very great, and you will truly be acting as children of the Most High, for he is kind to those who are unthankful and wicked.
Proverbs 10:18
Hiding hatred makes you a liar;
slandering others makes you a fool.
slandering others makes you a fool.
When I am in a very sad or angry mood I turn to poetry to express myself and escape my pain. If you heard my poetry you would usually say it’s dark. It is particularly very deep. These two verses spoke to me. I feel like I need to do a self evaluation. I need to look deep inside and find the places I am hiding hatred. I need to listen to the recent command God has placed in my heart. It is let go. I need so badly to let go. I need to think of everything I have been holding onto and let it go. It is only then when I finally make the choice to let go of all the hurt and anger I’ve been holding that I will be freed. When I let go of all of these things God will give me freedom. I will no longer be held down by what has happened in the past. Sure I have been hurt before, sure life is unfair at times, but it is time to let it go. I need to forgive every single person and every action they have done. I need to look past all of the bad events that have occurred in my life and open my eyes to all of the blessings that were behind them. I need to constantly be thankful for all that God gives me. I need to follow God’s example. Though we were sinners he still loved us, he was still kind to us. He paid for our sins with his son once and for all because he loved us more than anything. I will choose to forgive. I will choose to love. I will choose to give. Instead of avoiding the people who have hurt me I will embrace them. If they need help I won’t ignore them.
Anyway back to the poetry thing. Usually my poetry is something like this.
“Hemophiliac”
Your heart is like stone lacking compassion, like a hemophiliac lacks the chemicals to stop blood from spilling out of the body.
Bleeding my heart is bleeding the blood flows like a raging river, taking the broken pieces into a lake that has been forlorn way too long.
Sans hope sans peace sans life.
Heart shattered it's like you've taken it to the top of the Eiffel Tower and dropped it.
And it falls against your careless actions sharp as razors.
The shredded and broken pieces are more than the atoms in the universe.
You see how woeful I am but you constantly send my emotions out into the storm.
They are vulnerable without any protection.
They are thrashed around and toyed with.
Unpredictable like a tornado, an earthquake, or a tsunami.
Uncontrollable like a shark swimming in a tank filled with bloody fish.
You don't give a flying pig you pretend that everything is great and that hurts more than getting stabbed it the back. Etu Love?
I wonder if you just enjoy seeing my cringe in pain or watching my fists ball up and my face turn red with anger.
Does my agony affect you in anyway?
Can you feel the sting that afflicts me so much not even the strongest pain killer would be able to take it away?
The anguish is so deep not even the most high tech shovel could dig it up.
So I'm going to cut the strings.
I refuse to be some puppet you can just torture.
You will never cause my heart to ache anymore.
The shield that kept me blinded had fallen off.
I was blessed with the opportunity to see the real you, yeah I DO not like it!
So see you later.
You cause so much destruction this is my chance to walk away.
I feel like God has challenged me to write not about all the hurt I have experienced but how he has worked in my life through the hurt. I’ll post that poem when I finally create it.
Proverbs 11:17
New Living Translation (NLT)
17 Your kindness will reward you,
but your cruelty will destroy you.
but your cruelty will destroy you.
Oh one more thing. I appreciate everyone who reads my blogs. I have given up facebook for the summer. My friend Arielle posts my blogs up, so if you need to contact me. Please email me @ rhiajimenez@yahoo.com . That would be really cool. Thanks again and God bless!!!
Love in Christ, Rhia
Tuesday, 5 July 2011
Revelation
Proverbs 4:23
"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life."
Proverbs 4:25
"Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you."
Proverbs 4:27
"Don't get sidetracked; keep your feet from following evil."
The one who saves- Hillsong
Turn from old ways, lift your eyes
For the kingdom of God is here
Open your heart, offer all
For Jesus Christ is here, oh now
We will find our home
We will find our peace
We will find our rest
In the One who loves
He will light the way
He will lead us home
As we offer all
To the One who saves us
Call on the name that is hope
Jesus, the Son of God
Lord over all, He is good
And His mercy endures always
His love endures
Forever His love endures
Forever His love endures
Forever and ever
For the kingdom of God is here
Open your heart, offer all
For Jesus Christ is here, oh now
We will find our home
We will find our peace
We will find our rest
In the One who loves
He will light the way
He will lead us home
As we offer all
To the One who saves us
Call on the name that is hope
Jesus, the Son of God
Lord over all, He is good
And His mercy endures always
His love endures
Forever His love endures
Forever His love endures
Forever and ever
I asked God for revelation today and I feel he has given me it by reading these verses on wisdom. The first verse on guarding your heart is important and I wish I knew this before. In the past I have placed my heart in the wrong hands and I was left not the same. I was left angry, hurt, and maybe even crazy. My mind was filled with that one person over and over again. It was hard to let go and move on. Deep down I wanted healing but I kept holding on to everything. After a while the person showed up less often, but he was replaced by a different thought or a different person. These thoughts are what I constantly dwell on. It is important to guard our hearts because they are essential not just for physical life but also spiritual life. If I don't follow the verse that says look straight ahead and fix your eyes on what lies ahead, I will forever be stuck in the past. I can't allow myself to go through that. I need to live a continuous life of surrender. It will take a lot of time but I will get to the place I need to be if I am just determined to get there.
The last verse is about not getting side tracked. Last year I had no distractions. I was on fire for God and I was getting places. Than I got myself into another relationship and after that relationship another friendship. Both of those situations got my focus off of God. I was sidetracked and I ended up trapped in a place I never thought I would be. I was sidetracked so long that each day brought me farther and farther from God. It was important that I realized what I was doing wrong and sought out ways to fix things. I know that if I continued down that path I would end up in a very dangerous place. I thank God that he has given me a new chance to start over. I just have to keep my eyes on the goal and keep my eyes fixed on God.
Proverbs 3:11-12
New Living Translation (NLT)
11 My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline,
and don’t be upset when he corrects you.
12 For the Lord corrects those he loves,
just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.[a]
and don’t be upset when he corrects you.
12 For the Lord corrects those he loves,
just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.[a]
Monday, 4 July 2011
The Clock is Ticking
2 Timothy 4:7
New International Version (NIV)
We run to Your throne
Where we belong
Every heart will sing
That Jesus is Lord
Casting all else aside
For the joy of our Christ
Let Your glory fall
Our hearts are filled with Your fire
-Where We Belong
Hillsong
Today I was late to pick Arielle up. As I rushed into her house apologizing for being so late she said, "I finished my paper!" She gave it to me to read. As I was reading her paper I realized something. I have set so many goals to accomplish this summer. Yes I have been going through the motions of everything or at least trying to, but as time continues to pass I have forgotten the reason behind all of my goals. The reason behind my goals was to become closer to God. I have given up boys to get closer to God. Yet I have been more focused on disciplining my eyes instead of spending time with God.
I still have many months to work on this. I have an entire lifetime to learn the best ways to set a time just for me and God. I have time to learn more about him. I have time to talk to him and time to listen to what he has to say. I have time to dive into his word and find the hidden treasures in his wisdom. I have all the time in the world, but now is the time where I put all these dreams into actions. Today will be the day where I work on it. Life is a learning experience and if I fail I'll have to get back up again. If I sit and wallow in my mistakes I will waste time, which is a precious gift from God. The clock is ticking, and I don't know how many seconds I have left.
Proverbs 3:27-28
27 Do not withhold good from those who deserve it
when it’s in your power to help them.
28 If you can help your neighbor now, don’t say,
“Come back tomorrow, and then I’ll help you.”
Friday, 1 July 2011
Quench this Thirst
John 4:13-14
New Living Translation (NLT)
"My soul longs for you, nothing else will do. He'll come like the rain. Come like the rain. Let it rain."
-My Soul Longs for YOU Misty Edwards
Water is vital for survival. Rain comes down and quenches the thirsty earth. We find food to eat in the water. We drink the water which is fuel to our body. Yet no matter how many times we drink of this water we always end up thirsty. If we drink of the water Jesus offers his Holy Spirit will quench our thirst.
Yesterday I was fasting from food, but I heard that I should do a dry fast as well. So after a bit of praying I decided to obey. It was a challenge all day long, I gave up food but I wasn't hungry. I was thirsty, so very thirsty. I wanted to drink water so badly. My mouth was dry. My throat was aching. My lips burned. I felt so weak, but I just continued to go to God for strength and I was able to endure the day.
At fellowship I realized something. If I was dying of thirst and continued to quench this thirst with the wrong things it would bring me suffering. If I continued to fill myself with things other than Jesus I would always end up thirsty and eventually I would die. For temptation gives birth to sin and sin to death.
I must fill myself up with Jesus. I must fill myself with his love, and his word. I must continue to come to him so that I will no longer be thirsty. I am just a bottle. It is my choice to remove the cap and let him fill me. It is my choice to put all things aside and let him have his way in me.
This time of fasting brought many epiphanies to me and I thank God. I want to do so many things, but just sitting there wishing they would happen isn't going to get me anywhere. I must act to see these things happen. Just because I don't find anything when I read the bible doesn't mean I'll stop reading. If I stop reading I'll never get anywhere. It is better to do something than to do nothing. I'll eventually get where I need to be. Talk is cheap, I must work on turning my words into actions.
Jeremiah 42:6
New Living Translation (NLT)
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