Psalm 32:8 The Lord says, " I will show you the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."
Not because I have to
Just because I want to
Be with YOU Lord Jesus
You're the one I love
You are my hearts desire
My love for you's like fire
I can't contain it
I can't explain it
But I am not mistaken
I love to worship YOU
I haven't gone running in a while. Anyway when I run I don't like to carry anything. At most I'll carry my phone but other than that I don't carry much. It gets hard to run when I'm holding all this junk. In Luke 14:33 it says so you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own. If there could be an ultimate place to run to I'd say the place where God is would be the best. I want to run to God. It would be easier to run if I no longer held onto everything.
I mean think of it if he says let go of something why should I let it become something so hard. Obviously if he tells me to let go of something it's for my best interest. Giving. Why should I hold back when I am called to give something, even if it's all I have. Everything belongs to God and I know at the very moment when I need something he will just return it back to me maybe even seven fold.
Am I afraid to do something? I shouldn't be afraid. God has given me a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. I should never again let my fear have any control over me. If I am scared to do something, I am going to go in AFRAID and I am going to trust that God is going to get me out safely.
What else is there? Purity. Purity exists! I am going to make my standards high and I refuse to lower them ever again. There is some guy out there or maybe he's right in front of my face who believes that purity exists too. There is a guy whom God has promised to allow me to be with and this guy loves JESUS. He loves Jesus with all his heart. I will be patient and wait expectantly. I will not rush into anything on my own will because I know that it will end in an epic fail after an epic fail.
I I I I I I I I no more of that word I I I I I as in I will not rely on myself or anything of me to get things done rather I will rely on what God can do through me. I will no longer limit him because my God is limitless. I want to go to God in prayer and rest easy knowing that he is in control and he will always take care of me. God is good and he will always remain good.
So I am going to run after him. I want to seek him in the in between. I want to seek him always. I want to share this blessing with anyone who will listen. I want to be a young lady after God's heart and I'm just going to go wherever he takes me knowing that wherever I am in life and whatever I'm doing is where and what he needs me to be and do. That made no sense at all, but whatever. Haha I'm just down.
If God calls you to do something. Do not fear just go. He will be with you and you will be blessed with something you haven't had before.
"This life I live is not my own. I'm saved by grace and grace alone." Saving Power by Generation Unleashed
Friday, 25 May 2012
Sunday, 1 April 2012
MSG
8Something completed is better
than something just begun;
Ecclesiastes 7:8
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed Be Your Name- Matt Redman
All day today I have felt this emptiness. I have felt this longing for something more. It felt like nothing could satisfy this longing. I don't think it was all the MSG I consumed at the restaurant we ate at. It was something deeper. Sometimes I feel all alone even when I am surrounded by a million people. Sometimes I don't feel like I belong here. Sometimes I want some company. Sometimes I think that I can't focus. I get so easily distracted.
While I feel all of these things I know God speaks to me. He says that He is always with me, so I will never truly be alone. He can fill this longing with His love. His love can satisfy this longing I have in my heart. I just need to trust in Him. I have to allow Him to have my heart. I think that I can't concentrate then He comes in and says yes you can. One of the fruits of the Holy Spirit is self control and My Spirit lives in you.
I pray for revelation and each new day He reveals something to me.
What's a relationship with a boy when compared to a relationship with my Savior? It cannot compare. His plan for my life was already completed before I was born. So why would I taint it with my own desires? Why would I stop His plan from unfolding by going off and doing my own thing? Why would I give up eternal happiness for the ephemeral joy that has just started?
I shouldn't, but to be honest I am. I am struggling. I am distracted. I have to, oh I don't know. I have to stop relying on my own strength. It only ends up in epic fail after epic fail. I need to get so focused on God that nothing else that pops up in my face will bother me. I can do this with His strength. I just have to believe with ALL my heart that this is possible.
If I focus on God and count everything else as lost, He will let everything else fall into place. I have been distracted, distracted for too long. It's time to get my tunnel vision on. I know that I know that I know that I know that God loves me. I know He hasn't just been asking me to come back, He has been pleading with me to come back. Why? Well because He loves me. He does not like to see me being mistreated. He does not like seeing me hurt. He wants the best for me and I can only receive all that He has for me if I let go of what I've been holding on to.
My mind screams, how on earth do I do this?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I fall into the arms of my Father. I will trust Him. I will wait on Him. He will bless me with what I need to endure and conquer this. Whatever happens He is in control. I just have to surrender it all to Him. I will trust where He takes me I will follow Him wherever He decides to go.His timing is perfect.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
Psalm 139:16
than something just begun;
Ecclesiastes 7:8
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed Be Your Name- Matt Redman
All day today I have felt this emptiness. I have felt this longing for something more. It felt like nothing could satisfy this longing. I don't think it was all the MSG I consumed at the restaurant we ate at. It was something deeper. Sometimes I feel all alone even when I am surrounded by a million people. Sometimes I don't feel like I belong here. Sometimes I want some company. Sometimes I think that I can't focus. I get so easily distracted.
While I feel all of these things I know God speaks to me. He says that He is always with me, so I will never truly be alone. He can fill this longing with His love. His love can satisfy this longing I have in my heart. I just need to trust in Him. I have to allow Him to have my heart. I think that I can't concentrate then He comes in and says yes you can. One of the fruits of the Holy Spirit is self control and My Spirit lives in you.
I pray for revelation and each new day He reveals something to me.
What's a relationship with a boy when compared to a relationship with my Savior? It cannot compare. His plan for my life was already completed before I was born. So why would I taint it with my own desires? Why would I stop His plan from unfolding by going off and doing my own thing? Why would I give up eternal happiness for the ephemeral joy that has just started?
I shouldn't, but to be honest I am. I am struggling. I am distracted. I have to, oh I don't know. I have to stop relying on my own strength. It only ends up in epic fail after epic fail. I need to get so focused on God that nothing else that pops up in my face will bother me. I can do this with His strength. I just have to believe with ALL my heart that this is possible.
If I focus on God and count everything else as lost, He will let everything else fall into place. I have been distracted, distracted for too long. It's time to get my tunnel vision on. I know that I know that I know that I know that God loves me. I know He hasn't just been asking me to come back, He has been pleading with me to come back. Why? Well because He loves me. He does not like to see me being mistreated. He does not like seeing me hurt. He wants the best for me and I can only receive all that He has for me if I let go of what I've been holding on to.
My mind screams, how on earth do I do this?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I fall into the arms of my Father. I will trust Him. I will wait on Him. He will bless me with what I need to endure and conquer this. Whatever happens He is in control. I just have to surrender it all to Him. I will trust where He takes me I will follow Him wherever He decides to go.His timing is perfect.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
Psalm 139:16
Friday, 30 March 2012
I trust in God. There's a time for everything.
Don’t let the excitement of youth cause you to forget your Creator. Honor him in your youth
Ecclesiastes 12:1
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
Blessings by Laura Story
Oh man! Today was just an AMAZING day. I couldn't get over how wonderful it was. I kept telling myself that nothing NOTHING would be able to ruin it. I was just so incredibly happy. I could not get over how happy I was.
This morning I woke up super early, too early in fact. I woke up at 5:30 to make bread so that I could ask my best friend to prom. (He said yes btw. It just added to my already fantastic morning.) So yeah, I was in the kitchen making dough praying that God would help me because it just was not working with me. He answered my prayer because it turned out pretty good. I had so much dough left over after I made Rosco's stuff, so I decided to make bread for my friends who I couldn't find. I made dinosaurs. I'll make more for them later. So I was like praise Jesus thank you for allowing the bread to turn out well and for allowing me to finish this on time.
Then in fourth I didn't have anywhere to put my stuff so I decided just to stay and do peer support. I didn't really want to go to the class that was assigned to me but I went anyway. I just trusted that God had a purpose for me to be there. Oh dear His purpose was so great! I took out my Bible and started to read the book of Ecclesiastes. The boy next to me asked me if I was reading a dictionary. I said no actually this is my Bible. I couldn't help but find that funny. So I was just like sitting there wondering what I should do. I started asking about what they did in this class and slowly worked my way to talk about the importance of Easter. I talked about how we should focus not on the death of Jesus but that we should focus on the fact that He is alive. I said we should be happy that while we were still sinners He loved us enough to die for us. I was slightly worried that what I was saying was going over his head. He looked sorta uninterested in what I had to say. So I sat back and prayed that something I said would have stuck in his heart. Then I went back to reading my Bible and he asked me if he could see it. I was like sure! I said he should read the book of Matthew. After class he asked if he could borrow my Bible and I was like umm how about I bring you one after spring break?
Anyway rewind to fourth period again. The teacher was like so Rhia are you religious? I responded with hesitance. I said I wouldn't say religious, I have a relationship with God. He said me too, but my relationship with God is through music. It was pretty cool. He proceeded to showing me videos of this worship group. They sing really old songs, but beautiful songs. :) So I left and went back to Mr.Diego and said Sir, the class you put me in is such a blessing. My heart is so open and filled with so much love for the students in that class.
I hope God will continue to guide me in that class.
All day today I just kept thinking about how good it was going. I was even thinking about how nice last night was. My cousins finally came back home. Holidays were so stale without them. There was a lack of excitement that comes from many children under one roof. So I had a lot of fun getting to hang out with them.
Fast forward to today. Fifth and sixth went by so quickly. I also made time to read my Bible. I was trying to look on the bright side of things. Even if I had to man a recycling station it was still okay. It was hot but I had my hat and sun block to protect me. Oh and it was windy! So it wasn't horrible. Then it rained, but it was still okay. Rain is a blessing.
Something else came up that bothered me, but I wasn't going to let that get me down either. I wasn't willing to let ANYTHING and I mean anything get me down. I just kept repeating what my pastor said, a disciple of Jesus will not dwell on her past, her failures, or entertain negativity.
So yeah, my day was going terrific. Then I came back to where I put my bags down and the bag that held my Bible disappeared. I was freaking out. It was so.......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! What the?! I might have overreacted., I mean....c'mon! Seriously? Steal anything that belongs to me, but DO NOT take my Bible. I always said the only thing valuable in my bags is my Bible and if anyone steals that then they really need the Bible. I had to sit and calm myself down. Then this thought occurred to me, everything that was lost can be replaced. Everything should count as nothing when it comes to knowing Christ. So yes I may have lost my decked out Bible, but it's okay. I know God is going to provide me with another one. I know that everything that happens in life is for a purpose. Even though all these worries were screaming in my ears they didn't really matter after awhile because I know that I know that I know that God will provide, he is Jehovah Jireh, our Provider and I will trust in him.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Ecclesiastes 12:1
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
Blessings by Laura Story
Oh man! Today was just an AMAZING day. I couldn't get over how wonderful it was. I kept telling myself that nothing NOTHING would be able to ruin it. I was just so incredibly happy. I could not get over how happy I was.
This morning I woke up super early, too early in fact. I woke up at 5:30 to make bread so that I could ask my best friend to prom. (He said yes btw. It just added to my already fantastic morning.) So yeah, I was in the kitchen making dough praying that God would help me because it just was not working with me. He answered my prayer because it turned out pretty good. I had so much dough left over after I made Rosco's stuff, so I decided to make bread for my friends who I couldn't find. I made dinosaurs. I'll make more for them later. So I was like praise Jesus thank you for allowing the bread to turn out well and for allowing me to finish this on time.
Then in fourth I didn't have anywhere to put my stuff so I decided just to stay and do peer support. I didn't really want to go to the class that was assigned to me but I went anyway. I just trusted that God had a purpose for me to be there. Oh dear His purpose was so great! I took out my Bible and started to read the book of Ecclesiastes. The boy next to me asked me if I was reading a dictionary. I said no actually this is my Bible. I couldn't help but find that funny. So I was just like sitting there wondering what I should do. I started asking about what they did in this class and slowly worked my way to talk about the importance of Easter. I talked about how we should focus not on the death of Jesus but that we should focus on the fact that He is alive. I said we should be happy that while we were still sinners He loved us enough to die for us. I was slightly worried that what I was saying was going over his head. He looked sorta uninterested in what I had to say. So I sat back and prayed that something I said would have stuck in his heart. Then I went back to reading my Bible and he asked me if he could see it. I was like sure! I said he should read the book of Matthew. After class he asked if he could borrow my Bible and I was like umm how about I bring you one after spring break?
Anyway rewind to fourth period again. The teacher was like so Rhia are you religious? I responded with hesitance. I said I wouldn't say religious, I have a relationship with God. He said me too, but my relationship with God is through music. It was pretty cool. He proceeded to showing me videos of this worship group. They sing really old songs, but beautiful songs. :) So I left and went back to Mr.Diego and said Sir, the class you put me in is such a blessing. My heart is so open and filled with so much love for the students in that class.
I hope God will continue to guide me in that class.
All day today I just kept thinking about how good it was going. I was even thinking about how nice last night was. My cousins finally came back home. Holidays were so stale without them. There was a lack of excitement that comes from many children under one roof. So I had a lot of fun getting to hang out with them.
Fast forward to today. Fifth and sixth went by so quickly. I also made time to read my Bible. I was trying to look on the bright side of things. Even if I had to man a recycling station it was still okay. It was hot but I had my hat and sun block to protect me. Oh and it was windy! So it wasn't horrible. Then it rained, but it was still okay. Rain is a blessing.
Something else came up that bothered me, but I wasn't going to let that get me down either. I wasn't willing to let ANYTHING and I mean anything get me down. I just kept repeating what my pastor said, a disciple of Jesus will not dwell on her past, her failures, or entertain negativity.
So yeah, my day was going terrific. Then I came back to where I put my bags down and the bag that held my Bible disappeared. I was freaking out. It was so.......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! What the?! I might have overreacted., I mean....c'mon! Seriously? Steal anything that belongs to me, but DO NOT take my Bible. I always said the only thing valuable in my bags is my Bible and if anyone steals that then they really need the Bible. I had to sit and calm myself down. Then this thought occurred to me, everything that was lost can be replaced. Everything should count as nothing when it comes to knowing Christ. So yes I may have lost my decked out Bible, but it's okay. I know God is going to provide me with another one. I know that everything that happens in life is for a purpose. Even though all these worries were screaming in my ears they didn't really matter after awhile because I know that I know that I know that God will provide, he is Jehovah Jireh, our Provider and I will trust in him.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
New Living Translation (NLT)
A Time for Everything
3 For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.
a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Sunday, 12 February 2012
Happy Independence Day Rhia!
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew
Love Me by JJ Heller
Love. What does love really mean? Can I truly grasp it? Maybe I should pray that I will understand the concept of love.
Lately it seems I have been longing for love. Longing for love from anyone who would offer it to me. I think I've been looking for it in all the wrong places? I mean why would I give my all to something ie facebook or someone ie a boy when Jesus has this love to offer me. This love that is so much greater than the love that anything or anyone can offer. I don't know why I rush into these situations out of desperation when I am left feeling empty time and time again. The truth is nothing could ever fill the void in my heart like Jesus does. So the question lingers, why is it that I am neglecting my first love? Why is he at the bottom of my priority list?
I have this fear that I will walk away from my faith. Recently when I go to church or fellowship it's like once I'm sitting there I just want to bust out of the doors. It's like what Jeremy said maybe my soul is battling with my flesh. The thing that freaks me out the most is that it was never like that. I used to be so excited to go to fellowship. Like I would drop everything if I could go to fellowship. Maybe it's my fault, after all I've been letting the things of this world grasp my attention so long that I have lost sight of my first love. Maybe I have forgotten what it was like to just be submerged in God's love when my focus was on him and only him.
My pastor brought up this thing the other day. What if God takes away the things in my life that take my attention away from him? Then it hit me. Will it really take something drastic like another heartbreak to get my focus on God again? Why not prevent that by spending time with him now? Why not make time for him now before he disciplines me. I may not feel like doing what I've wanted to do but like I was taught I don't worship by feeling it's all about faith. So I am going to push through these trials. I may be taking baby steps but at least I will be making progress.
I am so glad that we are doing bible study every other day now. I have more friends to keep me accountable. I have more people that I can pray with and for. Oh and they can pray for me too. I praise God for these people who will pick me up when I fall on my face and run the race of faith with me.
No apologies
For who I'm meant to be
The only thing that matters is
I am free
When I am overwhelmed
Holding pieces of my heart
When I feel my world
Start to fall apart
To the cross I run
Holding high my chains undone
Now I am finally free
Free to be what I've become
Undone
Undone by Mercy Me
For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew
Love Me by JJ Heller
Love. What does love really mean? Can I truly grasp it? Maybe I should pray that I will understand the concept of love.
Lately it seems I have been longing for love. Longing for love from anyone who would offer it to me. I think I've been looking for it in all the wrong places? I mean why would I give my all to something ie facebook or someone ie a boy when Jesus has this love to offer me. This love that is so much greater than the love that anything or anyone can offer. I don't know why I rush into these situations out of desperation when I am left feeling empty time and time again. The truth is nothing could ever fill the void in my heart like Jesus does. So the question lingers, why is it that I am neglecting my first love? Why is he at the bottom of my priority list?
I have this fear that I will walk away from my faith. Recently when I go to church or fellowship it's like once I'm sitting there I just want to bust out of the doors. It's like what Jeremy said maybe my soul is battling with my flesh. The thing that freaks me out the most is that it was never like that. I used to be so excited to go to fellowship. Like I would drop everything if I could go to fellowship. Maybe it's my fault, after all I've been letting the things of this world grasp my attention so long that I have lost sight of my first love. Maybe I have forgotten what it was like to just be submerged in God's love when my focus was on him and only him.
My pastor brought up this thing the other day. What if God takes away the things in my life that take my attention away from him? Then it hit me. Will it really take something drastic like another heartbreak to get my focus on God again? Why not prevent that by spending time with him now? Why not make time for him now before he disciplines me. I may not feel like doing what I've wanted to do but like I was taught I don't worship by feeling it's all about faith. So I am going to push through these trials. I may be taking baby steps but at least I will be making progress.
I am so glad that we are doing bible study every other day now. I have more friends to keep me accountable. I have more people that I can pray with and for. Oh and they can pray for me too. I praise God for these people who will pick me up when I fall on my face and run the race of faith with me.
No apologies
For who I'm meant to be
The only thing that matters is
I am free
When I am overwhelmed
Holding pieces of my heart
When I feel my world
Start to fall apart
To the cross I run
Holding high my chains undone
Now I am finally free
Free to be what I've become
Undone
Undone by Mercy Me
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