8Something completed is better
than something just begun;
Ecclesiastes 7:8
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed Be Your Name- Matt Redman
All day today I have felt this emptiness. I have felt this longing for something more. It felt like nothing could satisfy this longing. I don't think it was all the MSG I consumed at the restaurant we ate at. It was something deeper. Sometimes I feel all alone even when I am surrounded by a million people. Sometimes I don't feel like I belong here. Sometimes I want some company. Sometimes I think that I can't focus. I get so easily distracted.
While I feel all of these things I know God speaks to me. He says that He is always with me, so I will never truly be alone. He can fill this longing with His love. His love can satisfy this longing I have in my heart. I just need to trust in Him. I have to allow Him to have my heart. I think that I can't concentrate then He comes in and says yes you can. One of the fruits of the Holy Spirit is self control and My Spirit lives in you.
I pray for revelation and each new day He reveals something to me.
What's a relationship with a boy when compared to a relationship with my Savior? It cannot compare. His plan for my life was already completed before I was born. So why would I taint it with my own desires? Why would I stop His plan from unfolding by going off and doing my own thing? Why would I give up eternal happiness for the ephemeral joy that has just started?
I shouldn't, but to be honest I am. I am struggling. I am distracted. I have to, oh I don't know. I have to stop relying on my own strength. It only ends up in epic fail after epic fail. I need to get so focused on God that nothing else that pops up in my face will bother me. I can do this with His strength. I just have to believe with ALL my heart that this is possible.
If I focus on God and count everything else as lost, He will let everything else fall into place. I have been distracted, distracted for too long. It's time to get my tunnel vision on. I know that I know that I know that I know that God loves me. I know He hasn't just been asking me to come back, He has been pleading with me to come back. Why? Well because He loves me. He does not like to see me being mistreated. He does not like seeing me hurt. He wants the best for me and I can only receive all that He has for me if I let go of what I've been holding on to.
My mind screams, how on earth do I do this?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I fall into the arms of my Father. I will trust Him. I will wait on Him. He will bless me with what I need to endure and conquer this. Whatever happens He is in control. I just have to surrender it all to Him. I will trust where He takes me I will follow Him wherever He decides to go.His timing is perfect.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
Psalm 139:16
